[15 minute read]
Content warnings: violence, global pandemic, and death.
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Out of habit, I reached for my nightstand to tap the snooze button, but my arm, feeling slack and heavy like a hunk of meat, remained anchored by my side. The alarm wailed, each blast growing louder, until I was certain that my eardrums would surely explode. My forehead broke out in a cold sweat as I squirmed, unable to move.
Open your eyes, I thought, begging my heavy eyelids to open. When they did, a stranger’s face was hovering above mine, staring at me. The blaring alarm abruptly stopped.
The man was wearing a white lab coat. He leaned in closer, squinting his eyes. “Dr. Kuran, Specimen F216 has recovered.”
My eyes darted back and forth taking in my surroundings. I was enclosed in a pod with a clear glass lid. Ligatures bound my wrists, ankles, and forehead — I strained against them like a guard dog at the end of his chain.
A woman, presumably Dr. Kuran, approached and glanced into my pod.
“So he has, and much faster than the others.” She scribbled something onto the clipboard she was holding. “Let’s begin the rehabilitation process. But go slow this time. We can’t afford any more casualties.”
Casualties?
“Where am I?” I cried. “What’s going on? Let me out of here!” They stared at me with indifference.
It’s a dream. It’s just a dream. I clenched my fists and squeezed my eyes shut, willing the pod to disappear and be replaced with…. Replaced with what? What was before the pod?
A tidal wave of panic washed over me as I thrashed against my bindings.
“Looks like we’ve got a feisty one on our hands.” Dr. Kuran smirked. “You better sedate and ease him into rehab,” she said dismissively, walking away.
The lid of the pod opened.
“Get me out of h—” I shouted, my screams cut off by her assistant shoving an oxygen mask onto my face.
He raised a syringe, tapped it a few times to release the air bubbles, and inserted the needle into the crook of my arm. My veins turned ice cold as everything faded to black.
***
“Welcome back, F216. Let’s try this again, shall we?” Dr. Kuran said, peering into my pod.
She slowly lifted the mask from my face.
“Welcome back? I still don’t know where I am. Is this a hospital?” I croaked. “And why are you calling me F216?”
My name….What’s my name? Why can’t I remember my name?
“This is not the time to ask questions. There’s a protocol to follow. Right now we need to focus on rehabilitating you.”
“Rehabilitating me from what? What happened to me?”
I searched the dark abyss of my mind looking for clues but finding none. Was it a car crash? Was I in a coma? Abducted by aliens? What the hell happened to me?
She sighed, a half-smile spreading across her clenched lips, then diverted her gaze to her clipboard and recited, “So far we’ve had a 60% success rate with long-term memory recovery across all specimens but it takes time.”
“Specimens? What are you talking about?” I pleaded.
“Your brain is too fragile to comprehend the truth right now but you’ll get there soon enough,” She said, laying the clipboard aside. “In the meantime, let’s focus on physical therapy. Studies have shown that intensive physical therapy improves the memory recovery process.” She began slapping electrodes on my arms, legs, and abdomen. “You’ve spent a significant amount of time in this pod and your muscles have atrophied. You’ll be walking around in no time and then we can move on to cognitive therapy.” Without warning, she shoved an NG tube into my nostril, causing me to gag as it slid down the back of my throat and into my stomach. “We learned the hard way, when the first few specimens recovered, that this therapy is quite painful so you’ll be sedated for a few months until your muscles recover. You can thank me later for that.”
“A few months? Please, tell me—” She lowered the oxygen mask onto my face, stifling my plea.
My entire body seized in agony as the electrodes shocked my weak muscles. A muffled scream fogged up the inside of my oxygen mask.
She quietly shushed me, sliding a needle into my arm. “Sweet dreams, F216.”
My body surged a few more times before my jaw went slack, my fists unclenched, and I began to wander the endless labyrinth of my mind.
***
“Hello again, F216. How do you like the new digs?” Dr. Kuran asked, removing my oxygen mask as I came to.
My chin rested heavily against my chest as my sluggish eyes peered around through my eyebrows. I had graduated from the pod to a small white room containing nothing but a bed, a toilet, a windowless door, and the chair I was strapped to.
“Your physical therapy is coming along nicely so I thought we’d give your brain a little workout today.” She said as she finished checking my vitals. “All you need to do is sit back, relax, and let the computer program do its magic.”
She raised a headset over my head and said, “Now, you may feel a little discomfort as the probe penetrates your—”
A searing pain shot upwards through the base of my neck like someone had pierced my skull with a power drill. Visors lowered over my eyes. Dr. Kuran and the white room disappeared and everything went black. Instinctually, I tried to raise my arms to rip the headset off, but my limbs wouldn’t budge and it wasn’t just because they were strapped to the chair. Adrenaline surged through my veins as I tried to wriggle free, to scream, to do anything but I remained paralyzed as if the headset had disconnected my brain from my body leaving me locked in a trance.
A photo of a man appeared in the black sea of my mind. He was young and vibrant. He had thick, tousled brown locks, amber eyes, and a beaming smile.
Initiate session one, said a feminine robotic voice inside my head. This is you. Your name is…Frank Billingsly. You are a…lawyer. Your mental age is…sixty-two. Your physical age has been reset to…twenty-nine. Session one concluded.
I was bursting at the seams with questions but I remained in a daze until Dr. Kuran removed the headset with a sickening metallic scraping noise as the probe was extracted.
“What the hell?” I shouted, straining to break free from my restraints, desperate to assess the back of my neck.
The muscles in my forearms pulsated, the veins stood at attention, and the velcro straps around my wrists made an audible ripping sound as I tried with all of my strength to dislodge them, but it wasn’t enough. With a throbbing head and pounding heart, I tired quickly.
“Cognitive therapy is very taxing, especially the first few sessions.” Dr. Kuran said, setting the headset aside and turning back to me with a loaded syringe. “Your brain needs time to recover, like a sore muscle. A little nap should help.”
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The white room swam into view. A blurry figure approached cradling something in their hands as the room began spinning. A rumble of nausea bubbled up from my hollow gut as my head pounded out a drumbeat. I gagged, then swallowed the acidic bile.
“Oh good, you’re awake.” Dr. Kuran came into focus as she lifted the headset.
“No, wait—” I screamed, thrashing against the restraints.
“Don’t worry, the nausea is normal and temporary.” The headset hovered above me like a halo. “Your brain is experiencing a major hangover right now. The sooner you complete your cognitive therapy the better so let’s get on with it, shall we?”
“Please, don’t—”
Probe, agony, visors, darkness.
The photo of the young brawny brunette floated into view once again.
Initiate session one review. This is you. Your name is…Frank Billingsly. You are a…lawyer. Your mental age is…sixty-two. Your physical age has been reset to…twenty-nine. Session one review concluded. Do you have any questions before we proceed?
I don’t understand…what do you mean my physical age has been reset to— A new voice interrupted my thought.
DON’T LISTEN TO THEM. LISTEN TO ME. I’LL TELL YOU THE TRUTH.
What? Who are you? What do you mean?
Please ignore the previous message. This program contains occasional glitches. Buffering…buffering…buffer—
WE DON’T HAVE MUCH TIME SO LISTEN CLOSELY. YOU NEED TO FIND A WAY TO ESCAPE —
Escape? How can I possibly escape? When I’m not strapped down to this chair, I’m sedated. I don’t even know where the hell I am. Who are you? How are we even having this conversation?
JUST FIND AN OPPORTUNITY TO ESCAPE BEFORE THEY HAVE A CHANCE TO SEDATE YOU. YOU’RE SMART, YOU’LL THINK OF SOMETHING. COME FIND ME AND I’LL EXPLAIN EVERYTHING —
Where are you?
Please ignore the previous message. This program contains occasional glitches. Buffering…
Hello? Are you still there? What the hell is going on?
Initiate session two. Upon completion of your rehabilitation you will return to your residence in…New York City. We’re sorry to inform you that you have no next of kin. A case worker will be appointed to coordinate aftercare as needed. In the event that—
LIES. THOSE ARE ALL LIES. YOUR FAMILY IS OUT THERE WAITING FOR YOU. DON’T LET THEM OVERWRITE YOUR LIFE. COME FIND ME.
Where? How do I find you?
LOOK FOR THE SIGN THAT SAYS, ‘CLONE BLOCK’.
Please ignore the previous message. This program contains occasional glitches. Session two aborted.
“Hmmm the program must have malfunctioned,” Dr. Kuran said, turning her back to me as she rested the headset on her computer cart. “I’ll have the IT department analyze the session transcript and—” She was interrupted by an alarm.
“Paging all personnel to the recovery pods.” A voice announced through the intercom. “A new specimen has been recovered. All personnel please report to the recovery pods immediately.”
“This is Dr. Kuran…can anyone hear me?” She shouted into the communication device clipped to her lab coat.
This is my chance. It’s now or never.
I contorted myself in the chair until I could slowly remove the velcro strap from my right wrist with my teeth — the alarm overpowered the sounds of my escape. In a matter of seconds, I freed my other wrist and both ankles. I grabbed the loaded syringe from the tray next to the chair.
“I’m in the middle of a cognitive therapy session. Let me just get the specimen sedated and then I’ll be right there.”
Just before she turned around, I jammed the syringe into Dr. Kuran’s neck. Within seconds she crumpled to the floor. I stumbled to the door, pried it open, and peeked into the hallway. Empty.
After a few twists and turns through stark white corridors bathed in harsh fluorescent lighting, I spotted a plaque next to a door that read, Clone Block. My heart pounded along with the blaring alarm and I wondered how long it would take them to find Dr. Kuran. Grasping the door handle, I glanced up and down the hallway. Seeing no one, I slipped inside.
A long concrete aisle, lined with jail cells on either side, stretched away from me. Dozens of outstretched hands reached for me through metal bars as the prisoners shouted, competing for my attention. About halfway down the aisle, I spotted a limp body on the floor. I walked toward it — a guard, unconscious, with blood slowly pooling beneath his body. The crimson liquid inched its way toward a toothbrush that had been crafted into a shiv.
“Frank!” Someone yelled nearby.
I stared, mesmerized by the slowly expanding puddle. The alarm halted.
“Frank, c’mon man. We don’t have much time.” The voice was coming from the cell next to the guard’s body.
“Is he—?”
“Dead? Probably. But in case he isn’t, we need to hurry if we’re going to have any chance of getting out of this place.”
I stole my eyes away from the guard and stepped closer to the cell where the prisoner had a white-knuckled grip on the bars. His desperate amber eyes looked back at me from beneath disheveled brown hair. The photograph from the cognitive therapy sessions flashed in my mind’s eye, a replica of the man standing before me.
“The photograph….Who are you?” I said, stumbling backward, nearly tripping over the guard’s body. “They said it was me—but you look—”
“I can explain everything later, but there’s no time for that right now. It’s just a matter of time before they realize what we’ve done. You’re just going to have to trust me.”
“Trust you? I feel like I’m losing my freaking mind here. Is this even real? How do I know I’m not still wearing that headset or laying in some pod right now?”
“Just listen to me.” He slammed his fists on the bars. “This isn’t a hospital or a rehab facility, it’s something much worse than that.” He pointed at the guard sprawled on the ground. “Now, grab those keys from his belt and open this cell so we can get the hell out of here, and then I’ll explain everything. I’m the only person here you can trust.”
Reaching down with trembling fingers I fumbled with the key ring on the guard’s belt.
“Hurry up,” The prisoner shouted, startling me.
I dropped the keys in the pool of blood. “I’m trying!” I scooped up the keys which were now dripping with blood. After several attempts, I found the right key, and the cell door creaked open.
“Now what? How do we get out of here?” I panted.
“That’s for me to find out. I’m sorry, but there’s only room for one Frank Billingsly in this world.” He said, shoving me into the cell.
“Hey, what the—”
He sucker-punched me in the nose, snapping my head back. I toppled onto the cot as he slammed the cell door and locked it. His footsteps running down the aisle to the cheers and pleas of the other prisoners grew distant as everything faded to black.
***
A nurse hovered over me. I blinked repeatedly trying to clear my vision. My eyes darted around taking in my new surroundings. It appeared to be a hospital room. A contestant was spinning the wheel on The Price is Right on the small TV mounted on the wall. I glanced out the window — sunlight was filtering through the clouds as cars maneuvered through the parking lot below.
“Welcome back, Mr. Winfred.” The nurse said with a kind smile.
“What? That’s not my name….Where am I? I thought I was….How did I get here?” I said, groggily.
“You’re in Union General Hospital. You’ve been here for a few weeks.” She patted my arm.
“Where’s Frank?” I asked, panicked.
“Like I told you before, there’s no one here named Frank.” She averted her gaze and fiddled with my IV port. “Hallucinations are a common symptom in the late stages of the virus.”
“Virus?”
“Mr. Winfred, you’re running out of time to make a decision. I’ll fetch Dr. Harbaugh to review your options again,” She said, gesturing to the paperwork scattered across the tray in front of me.
She started to leave the room, then doubled back and grabbed something off a side table.
“I almost forgot,” She said, passing me a newspaper. “I know how much you like your daily paper.”
As she left the room I unfolded the newspaper and read the front page headline.
Controversial Experimental Technology Underway to Upload Brain Data into Clones of the Immune as Virus Deaths Climb.
I shifted my attention to the two stacks of papers on the tray: A Do-Not-Resuscitate Order and an agreement to participate in the Brain Data Transfer Clinical Trial.
“Good afternoon, Charles.” Dr. Harbaugh said as he crossed the room to sit in the chair beside my bed.
“Charles? First, a voice in my head tells me my name is Frank and now you’re calling me Charles. What the hell is going on?”
Dr. Harbaugh removed the medical chart from the foot of my bed and handed it to me. “Let’s review the facts again, Charles.” He took off his glasses and pinched the bridge of his nose while I flipped open the manila folder.
Name: Charles John Winfred
DOB: February 23, 1962
Age: 62
Date of admission: April 24, 2024
Diagnosis: Neocryptic Virus
I glanced at the date in the newspaper, May 15, 2024. There was a headshot photo paperclipped to the chart — a man with salt and pepper hair, blue eyes, and a scar slicing through his left eyebrow.
“Give me a mirror.”
Dr. Harbaugh replaced his glasses and squinted at me. “Excuse me?”
“I want to see myself.”
He pulled a smartphone from his pocket and held it up to my face with the camera in selfie mode.
Piercing blue eyes stared back at me. My face, looking much more gaunt than in the photograph, was covered with silver stubble. I traced the scar on my eyebrow with my index finger and handed the phone back to him.
“What happens if I don’t do the clinical trial?”
He returned the phone to his pocket and the chart to the foot of the bed. “You will succumb to the virus in three to six weeks.”
The silence between us was interrupted by someone being paged over the intercom system.
“Charles, let me remind you that the clinical trial offers you the opportunity to preserve your mind. This virus has ravaged your body but you can have a new lease on life once your brain data is uploaded into a suitable host.”
There’s only room for one Frank Billingsly in this world.
He glanced at the newspaper. “Despite what you’ve heard from the media, this technology has undergone rigorous testing and the results are very promising.”
“Thank you for the information, but I’ve made my decision.”
I signed my name, Charles Winfred, at the bottom of the Do-Not-Resuscitate Order.
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